Tuesday, October 25, 2005

WHAT?!?!

So here I am, enjoying my 12-inch, Spicy Italian on Italian Herb and Cheese bread from my local Subway. It has all my favorite pepperchinis, tomatos, lots of mustard and provalone cheese. Wait, provalone isn't my favorite. Why, you ask, do I have my least favorite cheese on my sandwich?

Because my local Subway store phased out cheddar cheese.

I burst out laughing when the girl told me..... she looked at me sypathetically and said, "I know, crazy huh? They didn't do it for all stores, just the ones in this area" (she also mentioned something about King County). So, I asked her who I would need to contact to expres my surprise and dissatisfaction. She told to me call the number on the bag which is:

(800) 888-4848

Cheese lovers, help me out here!!! A sandwhich isn't a sandwhich without your favorite cheese on it!!! Maybe we can get them to put cheddar cheese back on their delicious sandwiches.

Thanks to all who care about the little things in life...............

Like cheese.

:=)

Thursday, October 20, 2005

A Night Out on the Town

Today happens to be my late mother's birthday...... I felt like doing something special so Erik and I are headed out to one of her favorite restaurants, Palisade. We get to go out to a fancy place, eat fantastic food and have a toast to the woman who made an unforgettable impression on the world......and on me.

It feels right to me......probably because I know that it's what she would have done......

In the coming years, something like this may not feel as important to me. Or maybe it will. I have no idea. What I do know is that I'm looking forward to sharing childhood memories with the man I love , over steak and champagne :-)

I just thank God every day for the unconditional love He sends my way. I am truly blessed.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

52 Things I Want To Do In My Lifetime

I was recently challenged to make a list, however long I wanted, of the top things I wanted to do or acheive in my lifetime. Of course there are many more things I'll want to do in my lifetime, but here are 52 of 'em, in no particular order :=)

1) Travel to Australia
2) Work with children diagnosed with cancer
3) Read one book off of Oprah’s List
4) Learn to play guitar
5) Be a summer camp counselor again
6) Honor my mom’s legacy by helping to keep the whole family connected
7) Obtain a college degree that I will actually use
8) See the Great White Sharks feeding off the tip of South Africa
9) Do some research and form my own opinion about the JFK assassination
10) Design and build my own home (probably using the UBuildIt program!)
11) Participate in a cancer walk
12) Get back into horseback riding
13) Travel to Kenya, Ireland, Jamaica, Brazil, the Canadian Yukon and Russia (among many other places)
14) Get with the times and actually buy a music apparatus (i.e. iPod or mp3 player)
15) Start a once-a-month massage regimen
16) Overcome my phobia of roller coasters
17) Send one month traveling and taking photos of God’s gorgeous, natural earth
18) Climb a mountain…….any mountain
19) Learn how to play the bass clef on the piano
20) Meet my birthmom, Brenda
21) Be the best wife and mother that I can be, just like my mom was
22) Purchase (or build) a vacation cabin somewhere, preferably near a beach or in the mountains
23) Record my own song someday, just for fun
24) Have an outdoor wedding
25) Master the art of cooking non-predictable dishes (like Spaghetti, Omelets, etc)
26) Take another Sign Language class (and actually try to learn it this time!)
27) Own matching bath towels (and maybe matching dish sets too)
28) Get over my fear and try to ski again….. and not on the bunny hill
29) To challenge myself at public speaking and get over my stage fright
30) Write less predictable poetry
31) Have a dark room in my home
32) Start a journal and actually keep it up to date
33) Regularly give money to the church and to one medical research organization
34) Visit the Statue of Liberty
35) Spend one New Year’s Eve in an exotic location (Spain anyone?)
36) Learn to ice skate
37) Watch a launch of a space shuttle
38) Ride a mechanical bull
39) See the Goonie’s movie
40) Test drive a REALL nice car…..
41) Take my kids to Disney World
42) Visit a tropical rainforest
43) See a Broadway show in New York
44) Learn to knit
45) Experience zero gravity
46) Kiss in Paris
47) Swim with a dolphin
48) Have my portrait painted or drawn
49) Go to Walden Pond and read Thoreau while drifting in a canoe
50) Take private voice lessons again
51) Take my own road trip, all the way around the US
52) Create the Hawkinson/Antisdale most up-to-date family tree

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Amazing Photography

I found this incredible site http://mig81.com/highland/index-e.htm - I found a whole bunch of incredible photos.....

Here's just a couple of 'em....





In the past year, I have had this growing obsession with nature photograhpy. I can spend hours searching online for photos like the ones above. Photos that make me ponder.....like what in the world that bridge was/is used for and why is it so long and why does it disappear into the water?

I wish I could just travel the world and take pictures of gorgeous things.....things I can't see from my little porch in Kirkland, WA :=)

Hopefully one day I'll be able to.

Monday, October 03, 2005

I miss my mom today......


It's amazing to me that it's been just over 6 months since she went to meet the Lord..... Sometimes it feels like 10 mins ago and I can still hear her voice comforting me - and other times it feels like 10 years ago and my memories are slipping.

It's amazing to me how differently I feel now. I was so angry and confused, trying to find answers and ways to understand why. I have accepted that I will probably never know why she had to go so soon and even though that irks me beyond beliefe, it's almost comforting knowing that I can stop searching for answers and just accept it.

It's amazing to me the instant empathy I feel towards people going through losing a loved one. A co-worker of mine is in the "waiting" stage of saying goodbye to his mother..... I hope my eyes conveyed how deeply I felt for what he's going through. The waiting is the worst, by far.

It's amazing to me that even though I am so deeply hurt from losing my mom, I can still feel so much love and hope for the people still in my life. I thank God each day for my family, my friends and my partner Erik..... without the people in my life I think I'd lose it each day.

It's just amazing.